Edit: Forget what I said about being fine, I just threw up while taking a shower. It's this stupid and evil blue pill!! I'm not taking it anymore, no matter what the doctor says u_ó Bah, it wasn't realiving either (throwing up), I still feel awful but can't seem to do it again (I tried -_o)
Hopefully I won't have to be away from DA though, now that I'm up to date with things here \o/

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My grandpa is... well.. now he's fine, but he's been at the hospital for about 40 days and he has good, and bad days. We'll just have to wait...

I need money. With so much ABJD's around I went back to look at the doll sites again... I saw 's doll site ([link]), and hell, the woman rocks at everything she does, the photos are AMAZING! And the dolls... wow...
I still can't decide what I want, but I still love the Delf-EL... maybe if I customize his brows I could get him to look a bit like Harlein? ehhh...
Meanwhile I'm also looking for possible models for Zach&Mel... these are my priority, I can't just think of making all my characters come true ._. (they're so many lol) but we'll see what happens. It's not like I have half the money for even one anyway.
I must have like 30 reais in my wallet -_- that's what, 10 dollars if much? I need what, 1000 dollars for a decent BJD? SHIT! Cause you know, the ones I like cost about 700 dollars, but I need more in case of.. customs clearance x_x damn you customs!! *shakes fist* ò_o9

Artwise I'm as slow as ever. I should really turn into an abstract artist, they sell paintings for 1.200 reais where I live o_o
And everyone here seems to be doing great works, getting better, while I can't remember the last time I had the strength and courage to pick up a pencil.
Oh well.

Neverendingeternalartblock.



....My ass hurts so much from sitting on this chair.

*dances to Snoop Dogg*

*collapses*

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** [link] **--> Rammstein did this for yaoi fans.

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Sketches to do:
1-*TriforceWarrior : DONE [link]
2-~iumazark : DONE [link]
3-~RafaelSoulforged : DONE [link]
4-~Enfim : DONE 1)[link] 2)[link]
5-*renata-young : DONE [link] (colored >>' )
6-~Aaiiry : DONE [link]
7-~SikaNoKitsune : DONE [link] , [link] (colored)
8-~keeru : DONE [link]
9-~okayasu : DONE [link] SOOOOOOO NAKED
10-*funeralwind : DONE (soon to be posted)
11-~Siyox


Clubs:


Clubs I support: (I'm collecting them lol)


Lovelies


People who don't give a shit about me but I still admire their talent:

Just an update and apologies.
First I want to thank all my new watchers, I'll answer each of you in time. And for my old watchers too: I'll answer all the comments you guys think I won't. I just can't right now.

What happened is on January 28th my grandpa went through a very risky cirurgy (he's 81) in Sao Paulo and about a week later I stayed there for a few days to visit him (came back today). Before that though(January 27th) I went to Anime Dreams, and I got very sick there and I've been feeling awful since then. I had to go to the hospital myself in an emergency, and I'm feeling a bit better since, but I still feel very sick, I can't eat or drink anything, and I'm so tired of this.
I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm going to a doctor this week.

So thank you for everything and sorry for the delay again...

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** [link] **--> Rammstein did this for yaoi fans.

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Sketches to do:
1-*TriforceWarrior : DONE [link]
2-~iumazark : DONE [link]
3-~RafaelSoulforged : DONE [link]
4-~Enfim : DONE 1)[link] 2)[link]
5-*renata-young : DONE [link] (colored >>' )
6-~Aaiiry : DONE [link]
7-~SikaNoKitsune : DONE [link] , [link] (colored)
8-~keeru : DONE [link]
9-~okayasu : DONE [link] SOOOOOOO NAKED
10-*funeralwind : DONE (soon to be posted)
11-~Siyox


Clubs:


Clubs I support: (I'm collecting them lol)


Lovelies


People who don't give a shit about me but I still admire their talent:

I'm almost back now e_e just like.... 50 deviations to comment on... WOULD YOU PEOPLE STOP POSTING?!? XDDD I can't keep up ;_;

Anyway, art block, yes T.T *eats own hand* It seems my style is even more unstable, can't draw anything good /o\ + no ideas! aughghaeh I have:
Tedious work to do! (it's work, meaning I would get paid! >< )
Pics to color!
Stuff needs to be done!
And not feeling so good... ¬¬ I can't do anything. I just feel AGUHAEIFH understand? e_e But I'm going to the doctor today. Weee.
This is really annoying.

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Here's what HAS been drawn, only thing missing is... inking&coloring v.v Let's see:

-2 AlucardxIntegra (Hellsing) pics
-2 CaptainHansxRip (Hellsing) pics
-2 Alucard (Hellsing) pics
-Aries Saint Mu (Saint Seiya) and Duna being naughty >.> not sure if I could post here at DA though
-Paintchat crap

originals:
-if you watch me for my angels... don't worry there will be more angels *_* I have at least 5 angels sketched, and yes many of them are Harlein.
-my characters, which I'm still trying to write.
-simpler pics (no bg), I need experimenting with them.

I just can't seem to bring myself to color anything. I don't know why, but I can't CG, I'll eventually have to force myself. I really don't know why it's so repulsive to me ~_~ I have a few things to ink in a light table too, and I can't do that either.
*sigh*

And I need to get back to writing.
Also I'm thinking of doing a short comic/manga also, just to learn how to do a comic, panels, flow, etc... Maybe one day I'll draw Zach and Mel's story? Hahahah far away dream @_@ And hey... it's... really perverted o.O It's hard enough writing it, drawing it and showing it to people... what would they think of me?! XD I know, I'm just an old perv, I'm no good, I can disgust anyone quite easily...
Just so you know how bad I am, let's say... I've played a scat hentai game -_-' What? I don't enjoy it, but it was funny.


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Sketches to do:
1-*TriforceWarrior : DONE [link]
2-~iumazark : DONE [link]
3-~RafaelSoulforged : DONE [link]
4-~Enfim : DONE 1)[link] 2)[link]
5-~renata-young : DONE [link] (colored >>' )
6-~Aaiiry : DONE [link]
7-~SikaNoKitsune : DONE [link] , [link] (colored)
8-~keeru : DONE [link]
9-~okayasu : DONE [link] SOOOOOOO NAKED
10-*funeralwind 1 DONE (soon to be posted)
11-~Siyox


Clubs:


Clubs I support: (I'm collecting them lol)


Lovelies


People who don't give a shit about me but I still admire their talent:

Ok.... I'm jealous. Terribly. Well maybe not that much, but I am.
Why is jealousy only talked about when people accuse others?
So I am, so what.
This person.... has all the attention, all the friends, all the praise. AND I DON'T SEE ANYTHING SPECIAL ABOUT HER! Anything! She's annoying, retarded and yes, incredibly nice, way too nice, and she deserves all the attention- no! Wait! Argh! I hate multiple personalities! ¬¬

Why does everyone WORSHIP her? Just tell me why. I want to understand.

Man I feel like.... the worst villain out there... this good, kind, cool person and I just wish they would die. Hahahah.

And then, seriously, she only sits her ass in front of the pc all day (ok, I do that too) and all she does is praise everyone's crappy art and draw, all day long. Man, if I did that, even I would be so freaking loved.

She's also got this super popular character, which for what I've seen has no backstory or personality, she just stands there and looks cool. And it's not even original, because she's just a *insertfamousstory*'s ripoff with a cool weapon.

I'd say more but then you'd correctly guess who that person is (if you haven't... it's pretty easy) , and you'd be very ofended because she is your friend. She is. Everybody's. Friend.


Sometimes I wish I wasn't so anti-social, but then I know I couldn't. I can barely deal with myself, how would I be able to deal with friends? -_-

Note: Don't be mad at me for this. I've just admited how horrible a person I can be. So try to understand, and don't worry I'm not gonna go and insult this person, this friend of yours, I've said all I had to say about her.

Not back yet. I am trying to answer comments though, sorry if it seems I ignored you... I'm just..... agh... -.-
I had 500 deviations to comment on, got rid of deviations of people who don't comment on me anymore, so now I have about 300. (yeah, some people just stop commenting on my stuff, and like I've said before I don't have all the time in the world, so I'm not gonna waste my time commenting on them, sorry)

tagged me, but I already did that tag about the 8 random facts. Foi mal Fran, eh preguiça de fazer de novo >_<
tagged me, I didn't even know that she knew that I exist. There are 7 random facts about me in this tag too, so maybe it counts as both tags?

- 7 Things that scares you...
1) Myself
2) Death
3) Finding out there's no "heaven" or "place to rest"
4) Dying before my parents and making them suffer
6) Living
7) People

- 7 Things you like the most...
1) PR0N 8D ...with romance (hetero and yuri)
2) Rohipnol >.>
3) Music <3
4) fictional bro-sis incestual relationships (my obsession XD), lolicon
6) my Family, friendship
7) my babies (my ocs, they live in my head), my imaginary friend/boyfriend/etc

- 7 important things in your room...
1) My dollies. There's Jack and Sally, Cammy, Sakura's, Tomoyo's, 4 Aries Saint Mu's, Dream (Sandman), Death, Dawn, Alucard, Integral, Walter, Betty Boop, and Junko Mizuno's doll.
2) all my art stuff
3) pc games
4) manga collection
5) Frida and Giger books
6) the pc, of course
7) my cds

- 7 Random facts about you...
1) I don't want to live my life
2) I don't want to die yet
3) is there unconditional love?
4) I'm addicted to downloading stuff for The Sims 2, but rarely actually play it.
5) I'm a failure and it's only my own fault
6) I'm not actually emo, just depressed
7) I spend so much time deciding what to do that I never actually do anything at all...

- 7 Things you plan to do before you die...
1) write Zach and Mel's story
2) be satisfied with at least one of my drawings
3) find something to make it worth it
4) express emotion through art
5) be respected (right ¬¬ )
6) be admired (who am I kidding?)
7) buy a BJD, at least my DELF-EL *.* ...ok just die already

- 7 Things that attract you to the opposite sex... (same sex too? hell I don't know...)
1) ok to sexy bodies and face (yes, I am superficial)
2) open minds
3) outgoing personality
4) character
5) sincerity
6) blonds/blondes XD
7) it would be easier to say what I DON'T like, because I'm not sure what I like, but oh well..

- 7 Things you say the most...
1) "What?"
2) Filhos da puta, vai toma no cú, etc... PUTANO!
3) dialogues from the "batman" re-dubed movie in portuguese "Feira da Fruta" =.D
4) complaining about stuff
5) "ich hab keine Lust"
6) "I don't feel like it"
7) "naum to com vontade"

- 7 Celeb or NOT-REAL crushes...
1) Sir Integral Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing ("Gura-sama" or "Teggy" as I call her XD )
2) Aries Saint Mu
3) Bono Vox
4) AJ Mclean (from BSB... not so much now but I used to have a huge crush on him, still love his voice)
5) Brian Molko
6) David Duchovny
7) uhhhhhh Kakashi? Morpheus? Yue? Belial? Harlein? XD

- 7 Favorite drinks...
1) Coca-cola
2) Sprite Zero
3) grape juice
4) coffee with LOTS of sugar
5) Cebion =.D
6) that's it... I can't drink alcohol because of my meds
7) water?

I tag whoever wants to do it.